john crosses the finish line…

waiting at the finish line to get shots of john crossing and completing his first marathon…

DJ’s started…and i would’ve started soon

my darlin’s already on his way to the golden gate bridge… i was placed in wave 8 and would start in about 15 minutes…

very disappointed in myself – darn you right knee, darn you!

failure feelings…

it’s 6am and i just got back from dropping john off for the marathon in SF. it’s a shitty feeling, driving into the city and seeing, seeing the other runners and knowing that i won’t be among them crossing the finish line today.

my first attempt at a marathon after years of pushing it off… and i physically can’t run it. i thought about parking after john left and attempt to do the race, but the possible consequences of further knee injury kept me in my car.

progress on my right knee has come to a halt and, if anything, i think it’s gotten worse. swelling has returned and i now have sharp, zinger like pains that come when i walk around for minutes at a time. i can see some bruising around the knee, which i didn’t see before.

this feeling of failure is totally not cool…people say there will always be more marathons, but that’s not the point for me. the point is i told myself to complete this one and i didn’t. mission un-accomplished.