I would love for me and John to start our family next year. But at the same time, I want to complete the Boston marathon and the Malibu Triathlon. I can’t complete 3 in the same year. At least I don’t think I can or should. I can’t even imagine training and participating with a baby inside me!
I’m creating the pressure on myself and I don’t know what to do. I feel disappointed in myself for not planning this better. For not getting off my lazy ass to get these goals off the list years ago so we can have our first child in 2010. My goal was 2010. It still is, sorta, but I just don’t know how likely it’ll happen anymore.
Sigh… this makes me sad. I know what the answer should be, though. Have the child first. It’s our baby’s health. The older I get, the higher the risks for birth defects and complications. I’d feel guilty the rest of my life knowing that I could’ve prevented any illness from our child. Sigh… no triathlon for me for a while because 2010 is just around the corner. 
